Talking about my private life is the least thing I want to do, but I think it's best to share some of those thoughts with the people around me. I grew up in a family that is not "open" enough to talk about little things. I was taught to do everything on my own and to learn from my mistakes. Yes, I did learn from every experienced, but I have also learned to keep everything within myself. I also learned that even if I share a little achievement, it would not even matter to them. I have taken all those negative feelings and made it my motivation in life, rather than sharing it with my parents and getting no reaction in return (advice or recognition).
So from living under those conditions, I'll admit, I grew up scared and shy to express myself. In truth, I lack the "guts" to say what I think. It wasn't until college that I found out that being scared and shy has no room in my life. While there, I fell in love and later found out that I was with the wrong person. The relationship ended badly, with me being hurt emotionally and physically, and later finding that he cheated on me numerous times. In the end, I've learned what I don't want and what I need in love.
For each of us, there will always be another person who will enter our lives along the life's journey. They could be our "better half," making us the best that we can be or they could be "worse," dragging us down. Much of it depends on taking a chance when the time comes, recognizing they are standing right in front of us or reject them, because we're too scared to fail. I think that in the end, God has a plan for us all including love.
I met someone online in December of 2015. I didn't expect that God would ever bring him to me. Honestly, I prayed to God and asked for two things while in church on "Simbang Gabi" (a Filipino thing): a better teaching position and to find the right and last man for me. On the very day that Jesus was born, one of them came true -- I met him. He was not the typical guy I have met in the past. He is a man who every girl would want to be with for the rest of their life. I could honestly say that he is my better half. He is my first and sometimes, my only supporter. He's my mentor in many things. And, although sometimes we argue about little things, it never lasts long, because we realize that there is nothing stronger than love. I could say that I'm the lucky one, but I think he's lucky too. :)
I thank God for bringing such a man into my life. My fiancee is worthy of my love. <3
So from living under those conditions, I'll admit, I grew up scared and shy to express myself. In truth, I lack the "guts" to say what I think. It wasn't until college that I found out that being scared and shy has no room in my life. While there, I fell in love and later found out that I was with the wrong person. The relationship ended badly, with me being hurt emotionally and physically, and later finding that he cheated on me numerous times. In the end, I've learned what I don't want and what I need in love.
For each of us, there will always be another person who will enter our lives along the life's journey. They could be our "better half," making us the best that we can be or they could be "worse," dragging us down. Much of it depends on taking a chance when the time comes, recognizing they are standing right in front of us or reject them, because we're too scared to fail. I think that in the end, God has a plan for us all including love.
I met someone online in December of 2015. I didn't expect that God would ever bring him to me. Honestly, I prayed to God and asked for two things while in church on "Simbang Gabi" (a Filipino thing): a better teaching position and to find the right and last man for me. On the very day that Jesus was born, one of them came true -- I met him. He was not the typical guy I have met in the past. He is a man who every girl would want to be with for the rest of their life. I could honestly say that he is my better half. He is my first and sometimes, my only supporter. He's my mentor in many things. And, although sometimes we argue about little things, it never lasts long, because we realize that there is nothing stronger than love. I could say that I'm the lucky one, but I think he's lucky too. :)
I thank God for bringing such a man into my life. My fiancee is worthy of my love. <3
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