It's been couple of days already since my last blog post. I've been into ups and downs lately in terms of family, career and love. It's like you're searching something on google wherein he/she is nowhere to be found, and that was me. Lately I've been blind by myself; lost, emotionally down, striving to get up, climb up and to stand up. The answers to my questions are slowly fading and out of reach. I almost give up of my own, thinking I am no good, I am no better at all. But someone always argue with me, striking me with realities, that it is better to get up and moved on to see the brighter side of life, rather spending it along the four corners and walls of my room which is the other side of me. I said, I stumble and I fall, there's no way for me to rise again and face the world; the world who gives life and second chances to me. Full of negativity that I accumulate for the past few days, that I don't have strength to stand up, to get and to discover the better me. Honestly, this year is not my time, grasping my breath to live, to love and to be happy. Still seeking for everyone's support and that those everyone will be proud of my achievements in life. Longing for care, attention, understanding, love and comfort. Hoping that that brighter future will come along soon, to end up the sadness I felt within me.
